And so we meet again

“Giving style to one’s character - a great and rare art! It is exercised by those who see all the strengths and weaknesses of their own natures and then comprehend them in an artistic plan until everything appears as art and reason and even weakness delights the eye.”
– Nietzsche

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.”
– Rilke

Just mending another broken heart.

I’m daydreaming about leaving academic research. I’m seriously thinking about it, again.

Since I don't have a cat or any other person here to talk to

20 year old female presented to the emergency department today with complaint of being misunderstood by her parents and being Korean in Longview, Washington. We went into the room and the patient was there with her mother. When asked what had brought her to the ED today the patient stated "I don't want to be here." It was obvious to me what she meant by that but the doctor.. maybe she just wanted to be sure, but she did not read the situation quite as readily. I also knew quite early into it that the patient was not going to speak frankly with her mother in the room.

I have been giving my manager a hard time with scheduling. I tried to submit my notice of resignation for the second time and she again contacted the manager and the owner of the company and told me that I had to stay through October. Fine. Whatever. I do not need nor am I expecting an enthusiastic letter of recommendation from her. We will never quite understand each other. The word "perky" was developed with people like her in mind.

The other day I was working as an Epic tutor. A job I like.... meh. I don't feel like finishing this.

(no subject)

Today during biostats lecture I collected data on the types of laptops people had.

MacBook Pro 13"  5
MacBook Air      2
MacBook          3
iPad             1

When people are cruel... only because they are so sensitive.

I was thinking about that the other day. It's one of those paradoxes about human behavior.

There might be other reasons why a person would act in a cruel manner. Perhaps they have a low capacity for empathy, they are insensitive, by which I mean simply oblivious to the suffering their behavior causes others. So they are unintentionally cruel.

But that's not the kind of cruelty that interests me. The kind that interests me, or that interested me at that moment, the other day, was the kind of cruelty that arises when someone is hurt, and so they want to retaliate.


1 - Go to Wikipedia and click "random article." The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
2 - Go to and hit "random quotes." The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.
3 - Go to flickr and click on “explore the last seven days.” Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4 - Use Photoshop, PSP, the Gimp, or similar ( is a free online photo editor) to put it all together.
5 - Post it your and add these instructions so your friends can join in.

It's a little bit eerie how well the picture matches up with the band name.

ETA - Oh, and this was the quote:

I'm a fan of laundry: the smell of fabric softener, the warm clothes in your hands. It's so good.
- Joss Whedon, Zack Whedon, Maurissa Tancharoen, and Jed Whedon, Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog, 2008